the world i know
September 14, 2008
the world i know has been challenged on just about every level i can think of. emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically, even geographically. and while today was marked with a geographical shift, i couldnt help but feel my soul shift a little with all that has- and is currently- happening. how appropriate for ike to strike. in a way, i feel like ‘ike’ has been churning my soul for some time now. not just to me, but to you to. i cant help but see it written on the faces of so many of my dearest friends and family. my conversations and non-verbal communication confirms that feeling. our weakest points exposed. some of our belongings lost. our memories tossed liked ragdolls upon the roaring waves and displayed like a circus on the local media outlet. but the strangest thing has happened. i am being washed, and i know it. after storms comes restoration. rebuilding. a solid foundation. i feel like even though my pain is so real, so raw, so honest, my savior is sitting close enough to catch the tears that roll down my cheek. He in the air that brushes my cheeks on my evening runs. hes the passenger in my car as im driving. hes the most graceful balance of discipling father and comforting friend. and i understand. it hurts, but i understand. and i know- without a doubt- that i will see from the mountain top again. and i really believe you will too.
since my words are not as eloquent as i would like them to be, here is the lyrics to a song i just found which-not coincidentally- fits perfectly.
“awaken me from my sleep and open up my weary eyes.
move me from my complacency and brinf my soul back to life.
wont you take this heart and mind and help me to believe?
its in the the fire that ignites my bones
its in the water that brings life to my soul
its in the blood that washes me clean
consume my wondering thoughts and renew my mind
remake, and recreate and interrupt my life
wont you breathe your breath on me and help me to believe?
wont you help me to believe?
wont you help me to believe?…”
